Ugh .. today has been a rough one. I worked myself apparently to my new “max” yesterday and today I am paying for it with a 101.7 fever, the shakes, and loss of appetite. Let me just bring you back to who I was way back when so that we can (together) have a clearer picture of this drastic change.
One of my 1st grown up jobs, I was with for almost 9 years. In those 9 years, I must have called in sick about 3 times. And mind you, I only called in sick those times because my boss had previously sent me home every time I had attempted to come in. I was never the sickly one. It would be impossible for me to “get what he has” if anything was going around work. Apparently, that is no longer the case. Actually I still remember when my doctor had asked me if I wanted him to give me documentation advising that I am immunocompromised. Like what in the heck is that?!?! I barely knew how to spell that, let alone want to carry around a piece of paper saying such.
I swear the only time it was cool to be “immunocompromised” was when this older gentleman seated next to me on my flight to Guatemala was coughing up a storm and the only seat available for me to switch to was in 1st class. Hahaha, that was actually pretty great!
But today .. my immunodeficiency is not so great. I was probably around someone with a runny nose and now here I am, useless in bed.
It still baffles me that a “skin rash” diagnosis like Psoriasis has changed so much of me. My resilience against becoming sick has lessened, but my resilience within to have a beautiful life has strengthened leaps and bounds. My skin seems to have weakened because of the scratching and the sores, but I have become thick-skinned against the stares and the comments made about my appearance. My voice has often cracked or has been muted by being sick and the soreness in my throat, but I have been more VOCAL about my pain, my struggle, my overcoming, my beautiful life.
Psoriatic Disease truly changes you .. it’s your heart though that determines how you can adapt to that change.
LIVING YOUR FULLEST LIFE 